Confession of my Ego

Maybe someday I might find myself
fully understood...
Of my past, present, and the future
circumstances. Not self-rationalizing.

I, too, followed the path of Peter, the fisherman.
Too soon- feared, tempted, or confused.
I fell in the sea.

God's mercy is needed.
and put my ultimate hope for it.
'cause God first loved me..
(don't want to argue with the predestination...)

There is no way I can show,
or even, cry out as loud as I can
to the ends of the world about God's Mercy
- the Salvation.
But to just walk the road with Jesus
in silence.

"Yes, silence speaks louder."

Jesus was silent in front of Caiaphas
not giving any hints of reasoning
or to prove himself - I'm innocent.
Instead he was firm with who He is- I am the Son of God.
(Matt 26:63)

Until then.. how much learning have to be done
through the lessons after lessons?
Just to be like Jesus.

My ego has just demolished the truth of all purposes.
Yes, and I'm still confessing my transgression...
and still will.

My last Thirty

Growing older does Not bother my innoscent (my culture) to deteriorate. I am learning so much from life experiences, but don't want to lose this...innoscent-self.
Today is my last day of my thirty. Argh... why is God spinnig the globe so fast? (sorry.. God. I'm just joking). Looking back my thirty... Dad went through the stroke, parents gone for mission for good, I met my One...
I will greet my new page with gratitude and with great curiosity- hopefully many good news. =)
Bye bye my thirty..... let's partY~!