Thursday, July 10, 2008

Confession of my Ego



Maybe someday I might find myself
fully understood...
Of my past, present, and the future
circumstances. Not self-rationalizing.

I, too, followed the path of Peter, the fisherman.
Too soon- feared, tempted, or confused.
I fell in the sea.

God's mercy is needed.
and put my ultimate hope for it.
'cause God first loved me..
(don't want to argue with the predestination...)

There is no way I can show,
or even, cry out as loud as I can
to the ends of the world about God's Mercy
- the Salvation.
But to just walk the road with Jesus
in silence.

"Yes, silence speaks louder."

Jesus was silent in front of Caiaphas
not giving any hints of reasoning
or to prove himself - I'm innocent.
Instead he was firm with who He is- I am the Son of God.
(Matt 26:63)

Until then.. how much learning have to be done
through the lessons after lessons?
Just to be like Jesus.

My ego has just demolished the truth of all purposes.
Yes, and I'm still confessing my transgression...
and still will.